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Chemo Sucks!

I closed my eyes and tears are there silently.

 

Can I be honest?

No matter how positive I feel inside of me most of the time—and even with the good news I wrote in my last blog, that the Cancer is Shrinking—some days, sometimes it’s sooooo miserably hard, and I feel that getting chemo sucks.

 

I feel lots of guilt, and I feel like a burden to my husband, Eric. I get jealous of everyone who is enjoying life as I check Facebook, Instagram, etc., and everything irritates me!!!

 

I finished #4 round chemo. It was the hardest, most painful time for me to go through. After this round, I felt so damn weak, and I got depressed. My red blood cell (RBC) and hemoglobin (LabDAQ) levels got too low; that was the reason I was so weak and fatigued. I had to get another blood transfusion.

 

I have had PTSD since this whole cancer came from a blood transfusion in 2001 when I had a car crash in Arizona and was in a coma for three days. I was injured so badly, the doctor said I’d never walk again. I was in a wheelchair for three years, and it took a long time for me to overcome it. But what I did not know at the time was that the blood transfusion gave me hepatitis C and led to cancer I have now.

 

After round #2 of chemo, when I was told that I had to have a blood transfusion for the first time since 2001, I freaked out. I got so scared and could not think about anything.

I had to do deep meditation and hypnosis (by Jessica Porter) to calm down and make sense of receiving a blood transfusion to save my life. It did help my RBC and LabDAQ normalize, and I felt better, with my strength back again. One problem I had was that it gave me a rash all over my face for about one week, like when I eat sugar or dairy, so you know the blood I received was not a macrobiotic person’s blood—hahaha!

 

This second time receiving a blood transfusion, I was told my RBC was way too low—more than the last time. I am weaker than ever. I was not scared to receive the blood transfusion this time since the last time helped me a lot. There is always a risk, but I had no choice and there was one bit of good news: Eric donated his blood this time for me since he has the same blood type and it worked I did not get rush this time.

Blood Transfusion

Eric donated his blood for me!

The blood test results were also good after the blood transfusion again, but I am still weak and very fatigue and did not get any better day this time. I only feel a little better one hour or so everyday so I go out to my garden (watering my flowers and herbs), be with my animal family and talk to Eric for a little bit.

When I get this weak I am scared and sad, and I am unable to think of good things. I feel that I may never get better. Besides all the side effects I have already been having, there are new ones: pain all over my mouth, nothing tasting good, sudden sharp pain in my legs and spine, and fever. I felt so miserable from time to time, all I could do was lie down and let my tears come out.

Chemo sucks. I am not sure if my body is able to take more chemo treatments – I have two more to do.

 

I noticed that when I was quiet, I could hear a buzzing noise in my head. It was like an insect noise; I was trying to remember what the sound was. It was like a quicker version of a cicada sound; a very common summer insect in Japan, it has an exceptionally loud song, produced not by stridulation, but by vibrating drumlike tymbals rapidly [Wikipedia]. This noise drove me crazy, and I was unable to sleep.

 

I watched Eric and felt the great stress of his fear, frustration, and sadness.
I had an argument with him over unimportant subjects.

 

I said to myself, “This too shall pass, this too shall pass, this too shall pass.”
One moment at a time.
I breathed out deeply and prayed and visualized to release my fear, pain, the sound of my head, and unwanted feelings of anger and sadness.
I visualized breath in good recovery, happiness, and wellness.

One moment at a time.

I breathed out deeply and prayed and visualized to release my fear, pain, the sound of my head, and unwanted feelings of anger and sadness. I visualized breath in good recovery, happiness, and wellness.

 

I am not sure how long it took, but the noise calmed down, and I was able to fall asleep for a while.

 

I gathered my strength and went out to my garden for watering.
My plumeria plant was showing beautiful flowers. The beauty of these flowers saved the moment.

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Beautiful Plumeria flowers in my garden.

 

Yes, chemo sucks, but the plumeria said to me, “I am here for you. Thank you for watering and taking care of me even you are going through chemo. I want you to enjoy my flowers. I love you so much!”

 

Accepting my negative, sucky feeling is not easy at all.
It is so f** hard.
But this too shall pass…

and I will not give up.

 

Love, Sanae 💖

 

 

Thank you for your prayers and continuous support!

We are grateful and invite you to help us at this time by YouCaring Fundraising to Support Sanae’s Recovery from Cancer or purchasing our books directly from us to cover my medical expenses.

Here are our books:

Love, Sanae

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Love, Eric and Sanae

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Love, Eric Revised

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Healthy Happy Pooch

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My post mailing address for sending your card, gift or check (check payable to Eric Lechasseru):

2610A 23rd St.

Santa Monica, CA 90405

I will not be able to personally reply to each person, but I promise I will read everyone’s messages, emails, and cards.

Love, Sanae 💖

 

 

 

Liver cancer PET scan image

The Cancer Is Shrinking!

The image PET Scan I have here is similar to what I had that my liver was taking over by cancer 90% in May. This image was taking from http://www.aboutcancer.com/pet_scan.htm

 

I had the latest PET Scan after #2 round chemo (in June 2017) and met with my oncologist to get the results after #3 round chemo (in July 2017, she was on her vacation so I had to wait).

The tumor was taking over 90% of my liver in the beginning (May), but the oncologist said the cancer has shrunk more than 50% and brightness is much less (I did not know that aggressive cancer shows brightness on PET Scan). I do not have an image of cancer shrunk over 50%.

My oncologist was very pleased and agreed to remove the drug Vincristine (which has a side effect of damaging the nervous systems) from my next chemotherapy (round #4).

Eric and I are happy to hear the results, and I am relieved that my oncologist decided to take out Vincristine, since I have been having so much nerve pain in my fingers, hands, toes, legs, spine, and whole body.

I have been concerned and had nightmares that the cancer did not shrink and I did not recover. No matter how much I show my positive side to you, Eric, and the whole world, I am only human. Of course, I have a moment of fear every now and then.
But this is good news to me, and I am able to focus and move forward.

 

One of the important things I want to share here is why the cancer has been shrinking.

 

I knew it was shrinking because one of my beloved cats, Mai Mai, took it out and went to heaven.
She sacrificed her life to take cancer out of my body.

 

Have you ever heard that cats and dogs have an acute sense of smell and have the ability to sniff out a chemical change in the body caused by disease? They can sense a change in mood, behavior, and patterns that affect daily routine. They can also sense differences in behavior, both physically and psychologically, due to an illness.

They “transfer” the illness to their own body and sacrifice their own life in order to save their human guardians.

 

I heard this when I was a child, and there are quite a few people who post online in Japan about how your animal family will sacrifice their own lives in order to save their human guardians.

 

However, in America, I cannot find any stories online like Mai Mai’s—where pets “transfer” the illness to their own body and sacrifice their own life in order to save their human guardians.

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Every night, Mai Mai had been sleeping by my liver, where the tumor was after I got cancer.
She comforted me so much every day being around with me either next to me or by the bedroom window.
Mai Mai was reborn from a previous cat, Mai, who lived with me for 19 years.
Mai helped me during ovarian cancer recovery 24 years ago, and she survived a car crash with me in 2001.
When she came back as Mai Mai, I could tell it was her right away. Mai Mai loves dogs, riding in cars, and being around me all the time, just like Mai.

 

One night, she ate dinner as usual and I gave her a little treat that she likes after we watched the movies after the dinner.
She did not eat the treat and stayed under a cabinet and she did not want to come out so I let her stay there.
After midnight, I went to check on her, she screamed, so I held her and gave her Rescue Remedy and applied Reiki.
She calmed down and slept for a while, but she screamed again, so I gave her Rescue Remedy and applied Reiki again.
I told her, “I will call Dr. May first thing in the morning, so hang in there.”

 

At 4:30 am, she screamed again, and I gave her a little water. While I was giving her Reiki, she gagged out blood and passed qi quickly.
I did not know exactly what happened, but she was gone.
I was so shocked and did not know what to think. It happened so suddenly.
I could not believe it.

I called her name loud and cried hard then I communicated with her right away. Mai Mai said, “Mommy, not to worry—I could only help you this way this time. I took cancer out of your body and took it to heaven. Don’t be too sad, because I am going to come back when you get better, after the chemotherapy.”
I did not know how to answer, but I said, “Thank you, Mai Mai!”
She said, “Mommy, you are welcome. I love you so much, and I thank you so much for finding me again. I know you are going to find me again.”

I have talked to my animal commnicator, Lydia Hiby. She confirmed me that Mai Mai sacrificed her life for me and she will be back.

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I held her for a long time and put her in her favorite place, by the bedroom window, where she stayed most of the day with a candle and incense.
Then I took her body to Los Angeles Pet Memorial Park & Crematorium. I gave her my gratitude and told her I am waiting for her to come back again.

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It was so hard to say “Good Bye” to Mai Mai.

 

I told my oncologist that I knew cancer was shrinking, so she asked me how I knew, and I shared Mai Mai’s story. She said she’d never heard that animals sacrifice their own lives in order to save their human guardians, but she believes it.

The cancer is shrinking because macrobiotic approaches I am still practicing every day, all of your love and the chemotherapy are working.

 

And no matter what, I really believe Mai Mai’s work is most effective and moving my heart to live the rest of my life.

 

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It is important for me to share about my beloved Mai Mai here with all my heart and gratitude.

Mai Mai Ihai

 

Love, Sanae 💖

 

Thank you for your prayers and continuous support!

We are grateful and invite you to help us at this time by YouCaring Fundraisng to Support Sanae’s Recovery from Cancer or purchasing our books directly from us to cover my medical expenses.

Here are our books:

Love, Sanae

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Love, Eric and Sanae

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Love, Eric Revised

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Healthy Happy Pooch

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My post mailing address for sending your card, gift or check (check payable to Eric Lechasseru):

2610A 23rd St.

Santa Monica, CA 90405

I will not be able to personally reply to each person, but I promise I will read everyone’s messages, emails, and cards.

Love, Sanae 💖

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Free Wigs for Cancer Patients

As I wrote on July 28th (the last blog: Shaving My Hair After Chemotherapy) I loved having my long hair and I had an attachment with my long hair and concerned about losing my hair when I got chemotherapy treatment.
But some of my friends said, “Just enjoy it, and get a wig in a color you never thought you would wear.”
So, I checked the internet to see what was available.
There are many sites where you can find wigs for cancer patients.
Since there is no hair, or not much hair, to hold when you wear the wig, there were instructions to wear a wig cap. My skin is very sensitive, and I did not want to wear a synthetic material cap, so I had to study a little.

 

While I was checking, I read on Bethany Kandel’s blog that there are free wigs for cancer patients information. One of the best offers I found was on the American Cancer Society site. I called them and got all the information I needed. They were so nice and caring. I found a local wig bank of American Cancer Society and made an appointment.

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I tried many different styles. 650 Wig Judy style

 

 

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There were mostly synthetic hair wigs since natural hair is more expensive, but it did not matter to me.
It was fun, and I picked my first official wig, which happens to be natural hair! Way to go, Sanae!!!

 

I did not realize that Eric was very conservative about me choosing a wig color; he wanted me to get a similar color to my own hair. So this time, I got almost the same color as my natural hair.
But you know what, I may get a pink or lavender wig for Halloween!

Pink wig

 

What do you think? LOL!

 

Making this chemotherapy time as one of my best experience in my life!!!

Love,
Sanae💖

 

Thank you for your prayers and continuous support!

We are grateful and invite you to help us at this time by YouCaring Fundraisng to Support Sanae’s Recovery from Cancer or purchasing our books directly from us to cover my medical expenses.

Here are our books:

Love, Sanae

Love-Sanae-front-cover

Love, Eric and Sanae

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Love, Eric Revised

love-eric-revised-the-front-cover

Healthy Happy Pooch

HHP-book-front-cover

My post mailing address for sending your card, gift or check (check payable to Eric Lechasseru):

2610A 23rd St.

Santa Monica, CA 90405

I will not be able to personally reply to each person, but I promise I will read everyone’s messages, emails, and cards.

Love, Sanae 💖

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Shaving My Hair After Chemotherapy

My mother had beautiful, long hair when I was growing up. She told me, “Your father loves long hair,” and she smiled. Her beautiful hair stays in my memory, so I enjoy growing my hair long, too.
I also found out that by having long hair, I did not have to go get my hair cut too often. It was perfect for someone lazy like me to go get a haircut every two to three months.

 

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Before I cut my hair

 

When I had ovarian cancer 24 years ago, one of my good friends said, “It will be so sad to see you lose your beautiful, long hair from chemotherapy.” Fortunately, I did not have to take chemotherapy to treat the cancer, so I didn’t deal with losing hair that time.

Recently, I was diagnosed with cancer of Diffuse Large B-Cell Lymphoma (DLBCL) Primary non-Hodgkin of Liver, Stage IV because of Hepatitis C that I got from the blood transfusion result of the car accident in 2001.

I did my best to heal with macrobiotic food and other natural remedies, but the cancer was growing too fast, so I had to make a decision to take chemotherapy. There are many side effects, and one of them was losing hair. I did not know what to think about losing my hair. It was a somewhat scary thought, since I’ve loved having my hair long most of my life. But when I saw my hair was falling out slowly everyday, I knew it was time for me to just shave.

 

I had an image of the famous Sinéad O’Connor’s shaved head and told myself it would maybe grow into a short Annie Lennox hairstyle after chemotherapy. They are beautiful women, so I did not feel so bad. I also researched famous women who shaved their heads, and surprisingly, there were so many of them. You can check also, if you are curious like me.

 

How did I do it? First, I cut my hair shorter to adjust my emotional shock. I let it stay that way for one week and got ready to shave.

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Cut my hair shorter first and enjoying gardening

 

Who shaved my hair?

Eric!

He has been shaving his hair, so I asked him. First he said, “I don’t know how to shave nicely.” I said that shaving is one way: just shaven. There is one style I am looking for: “short.” So he said, “Okay, let’s see.”

 

It was a perfectly warm day to be out on the back deck. Sunlight was reflecting off my head, and I felt warm as he was shaving.

 

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Beautiful day to be out on the deck to shave my hair

 

 

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The first shaved!

 

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Most people said I look like a Buddhist monk. I am not sure if I got enlightenment from shaving my head, but I am getting used to it. Now I scrub my head every morning and night when I do my body scrub, and I love it. I also massage my scalp, and it feels so good.

 

 

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Shave head is done!

 

My everyday goal is making this chemotherapy period be one of my best experiences.

 

Love, Sanae

 

Thank you for your prayers and continuous support!

We are grateful and invite you to help us at this time by YouCaring Fundraisng to Support Sanae’s Recovery from Cancer or purchasing our books directly from us to cover my medical expenses.

 

Here are our books:

Love, Sanae

Love-Sanae-front-cover

 

Love, Eric and Sanae

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Love, Eric Revised

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Healthy Happy Pooch

HHP-book-front-cover

 

My post mailing address for sending your card, gift or check (check payable to Eric Lechasseru):

2610A 23rd St.

Santa Monica, CA 90405

 

I will not be able to personally reply to each person, but I promise I will read everyone’s messages, emails, and cards.

 

Love, Sanae 💖

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Chemotherapy & Wedding Anniversary

One month ago, June 20, was my 13th wedding anniversary with Eric.
It was going to be in the middle of my second round of chemotherapy, so I asked Eric to celebrate a few days earlier on the weekend. I also requested that Eric makes a strawberry shortcake for us.

 

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We had lunch with Michiyo and Nancy, and also dinner with Amanda and Jessica, to celebrate over two different meals. I wore the dress that Eric chose, and I added a pink cardigan to match my handmade rhodonite (helps emotional balance) necklace and bracelet and my amethyst and aquamarine bracelet (healing lymph and overall).

 

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I was a little concerned that I did not look good enough for the anniversary, with my shaved head and being sick.
I told myself that I am beautiful no matter what, and what is important is how much I love Eric and appreciate him.

 

I am not much of a makeup person, but I decided to add color to my lips with organic hemp, which I just got at a co-op in Santa Monica. The color was very natural, and at the same time, it made my complexion much brighter. I liked the result a lot. This helped me realize I am “beautiful,” even though I have cancer and am in chemotherapy treatments. My style is to wear something comfortable with natural materials, with pastel colors to bring out my soul and add color to express my identity.

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I feel that in this way, I can cheer myself up and show how much love I feel to my beloved husband, Eric, and the whole world.

 

I am more appreciative of my life than ever.

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Thank you,

Sanae

 

Thank you for your prayers and continuous support!

We are grateful and invite you to help us at this time by YouCaring Fundraisng to Support Sanae’s Recovery from Cancer or purchasing our books directly from us to cover my medical expenses.

Here are our books:

Love, Sanae

Love-Sanae-front-cover

Love, Eric and Sanae

love-es-front-cover

Love, Eric Revised

love-eric-revised-the-front-cover

Healthy Happy Pooch

HHP-book-front-cover

My post mailing address for sending your card, gift or check (check payable to Eric Lechasseru):

2610A 23rd St.

Santa Monica, CA 90405

I will not be able to personally reply to each person, but I promise I will read everyone’s messages, emails, and cards.

Love, Sanae 💖

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Emotional Side Effects of Chemotherapy and How to Help Them

The most common side effects I had from my first chemotherapy treatment for cancer of Diffuse Large B-Cell Lymphoma (DLBCL) Primary non-Hodgkin of Liver, stage IV (because of Hepatitis C that I got from the blood transfusion result of the car accident in 2001) were fatigue, taste bud changes, dry mouth, weird mouth taste and smell, weakness, nerve pain in my fingers and toes, pain over the kidneys, stomach and digestive system areas, sleep disruption, frequent urination (especially in the middle of night), etc. I was also informed that nausea, vomiting, loss of appetite, and constipation happen to many people.

 

Because my mouth was very dry and tasted and smelled abnormal, and my taste buds changed, there was definitely discomfort in my stomach and digestive system. But I think eating macrobiotic foods has been helping me so much, I did not experience nausea, vomiting, or loss of appetite. I have to be creative with Eric to come up with what tastes good to me, because of the metallic taste in my mouth. I still enjoy most of my food and have a good appetite without nausea and vomiting. When I am able, I will put together what I have been eating to share with you.

 

Today, I want to write about emotional side effects I have experienced while receiving my second chemotherapy. There are many, including mood swings, depression and anxiety, but my doctor does not mention these much, so I thought it very important for everyone to know if you are receiving or will receive chemotherapy. Also, it’s good for family and friends to know, so they can support their loved ones who are going through chemotherapy.

 

Before I write what emotional issues I had, I want to quickly write what kind of chemotherapy I have been receiving. It is called EPOCH + Rituximab chemotherapy and contains: Etoposide (Toposar®, VePesid®, Etopophos®), Prednisone (Deltasone, Liquid Pred, Meticorten, Orasone), Vincristine (Oncovin ®, Vincasar Pfs, Vincristine Sulfate, LCR, VCR), Cyclophosphamide (Cytoxan®, Neosar®), Doxorubicin (Adriamycin ®, Rubex) and Rituximab.

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Photo: EPOCH Chemo liquid

 

 

This is a five-day, 24-hour chemotherapy, so it is an intense treatment. But it is a slower drip each day into my body than just a one-day, big-dose treatment, which could be too much for my system.

 

When I received the chemotherapy, I found out there were some other drugs that were also given with the treatment. Benadryl was one of the drugs given to treat allergic reactions; it is slightly effective against the nausea and vomiting that can be caused by chemotherapy. It made me feel scared, because I felt my heart go fast. At the same time, I could not move or talk, and I felt drowsy. It was only one time in the beginning of my first day of chemotherapy, but I really feel scared to receive this drug, so I wished I did not have to take it.

 

The second drug was a steroid, which helped reduce allergic reactions to certain drugs. Every time I receive steroids, I feel angry, frustrated, and moody, and I have a hard time feeling grateful and happy. This made me feel bad, so I talked to my friend Jessica. She said, “Sanae, that is not you; it is the steroid. So, you do not have to feel so bad. It will go away once the drug is out of your system.” She was right; it did go away after five days of steroids with chemotherapy. I was happy and feeling grateful again slowly, even though I know that I have cancer and am taking chemotherapy.

 

Neulasta on-body Injector

Photo: Neulasta body Injector

 

Neulasta has been giving me so much pain and emotional downsides. It helps bring up my white blood cells, but the side effect of bone pain all over my head, face and body was seriously unbearable to me. This is after the five-day chemotherapy I had to receive. The first time, I was not aware, and it put me down at least seven days and took another few days for me to really recover. I was crying a lot because of severe pain, and I was not able to do much besides just lying down.

 

The Tylenol that was recommended by the doctor did not help at all. Later, it was recommended that I take Claritin for pain, but it caused dizziness and drowsiness, and I was not able to function at all, even though the pain was a little better. So, I am not sure what to do for next time, and that gives me anxiety.

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Photo: The second round chemotherapy as out-patient at UCLA clinic.

 

With the second round chemotherapy, I noticed many more emotional side effects than the first one.

I was feeling down and even had nightmares two nights in a row. My first nightmare was that I was not able to get better. I was walking and did not know what to do. I noticed that everything I touched caught fire, and I did not understand why it was happening. I put out all the fires, but I was getting so tired. I realized I was holding a small object in my hand; it had a small hole, and fire was coming out of it. No matter how much I blew on it, the fire would come back and burn everything I touched or got close to. I tried to release the object, but it was glued to my hand. I screamed and woke up.

The second nightmare was the same. I was walking again with this object in my hand, and things got burned when I touched or got close to them. I put out the fire as much as I could, but I was tired. No matter how much I made efforts, the fire of this object was in my hand. Again, I screamed and woke up.

I think having nightmares takes so much strength, and I am usually very tired when I get up. I also do not want to remember much, but this time, I really wanted to focus. It took time, but I realized the fire was the chemotherapy inside me, which I can’t get rid of. As I posted on “My First Chemotherapy,” the EPOCH chemotherapy liquid is orange colored, which looks like fire. It had very dark and heavy energy, so when I received it, I felt dark and heavy.

I am feeling:

  • Depression
  • Irritability
  • Fear
  • Resentment
  • Fatigue
  • Worry
  • Difficulty concentrating and remembering
  • Changeable emotions (sudden crying or anger)
  • Loss of interest in activities, social events, and socializing
  • Changes in sleep—mostly getting up early in the morning, around 4–5am
  • Changes in appetite (my case not much, but I heard that it can be overeating or loss of appetite)
  • Loss of energy and motivation
  • Feelings of hopelessness or worthlessness
  • A feeling that life is not worth living, suicidal thoughts (my case almost nothing this kind of thoughts this time)
  • Anxiety
  • Increasing interest in sweet food  and salty food
  • Upset stomach or other physical symptoms
  • Panic attacks
  • Frustration with Eric and other people

 

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Photo: Resting with Tin Tin

 

In order for me to handle chemotherapy, I created a daily routine to help emotional side effects:

  • Rest and sleep: It is very important for me to rest and sleep so I feel more refreshed and energized.
  • Positive affirmation: I tell myself I am beautiful and doing well every morning.
  • Daily food journal: I record a daily menu of what I eat and drink—what did or did not taste good.
  • Creating a healing space: I use the bedroom or a peaceful resting/meditation space with green plants, flowers, healing gemstones, and cards/quotes that imspired me. Also add aroma therapy and Bach flower remedy room diffuser etc. (I made my bedroom window as my healing space with green plant, flowers and MaiMai was enjoying being there as the featured photo here)
  • Finding something to enjoy: I love gardening, knitting, taking photographs, writing, making healing gemstones jewlery, calligraphy, and playing ukulele, but I can’t do many things beacuse of one of side effects from chemotherapy – pain in my fingers and toes, but I make effects to do gardening, knitting and taking photos when my fingers are less pain.
  • Detailed daily planner: I note appointments and schedules, to-do lists, important dates, websites, phone numbers and addresses, meeting notes, and even movies I’d like to see or books I’d like to read.
  • Body scrub: This activates circulation and better energy flow throughout the entire body. It helps to discharge chemotherapy chemicals, smells and toxins.
  • Light exercise and moving my body: I do restorative yoga, stretching, and walking (short distance) with my dog(s). Regular physical activity is not only good for my body, but it also improves my mood, makes me feel more alert, and decreases fatigue.
  • Meditation: Even a short or laying down I find any mediation with anapana (natural, normal respiration thought nose and focus nostrils as it enters or leaves the nostrils. ) It is a simple technique that helps calm and concentrate my mind. Goal is 1 hour each morning and night.
  • Reiki, acupuncture, shiatsu and moxibustion: In order to release physical pain I receive these healing treatments instead of taking medication. When my physical pain is release then my emotional side effects can be helped and I am able to relax.
  • Hypnosis: It helps to relax my mind, almost like almost taking a nap to me. Through hypnosis I am learning how to change energy of pain to less pain or no pain.
  • Eating more digestible-fiber foods (whole grains and veggies): Being macrobiotic, this is not so challenging for me. I’ve also found that people who eat more vegetables have less or no nausea, vomiting, loss of appetite, or constipation.
  • Not doing too much: I tend to do too much multitasking, so I’m making an effort to focus on one thing at a time.
  • Asking for help: When I need to do something but am not able to do so, friends and loved ones can help with daily tasks to cut down on distractions and help save mental energy.
  • Listening to healing music/music: Enjoy morning Bird singing, water sounds, healing bell and whole sound etc. Any music that feels good to me helps my emotions.
  • Tracking memory problems: I keep a diary of when I notice problems and what’s going on at the time. Medicines taken, time of day, and the situation I’m in might help me figure out what affects my memory. Keeping track of when the problems are most noticeable can also help me prepare. I’ll know to avoid planning important conversations or appointments during those times. This record is also useful when I talk with my doctor about these problems.
  • Smiling and laughing: I try not to focus on how much the chemotherapy side effects/symptoms bother me. Accepting the problem will help me deal with it. Being able to laugh about things I can’t control can help with coping. We probably notice our problems much more than others do. Sometimes we all have to laugh about forgetting to take the grocery list with us to the store. Smiling will bring happiness.

 

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Photo: Planted sunflower seeds

Day-to-day coping is important. One day at time!

I just do my best to enjoy my day—seeing the sunrise, going to my garden every morning and being around the trees, flowers and seedlings (I am growing sunflowers), walking with my dog(s), cuddling my cats, hugging and kissing Eric. On a good day, I see my friend(s) and go out to the beach.

And no matter what, I accept Sanae (myself), support her, and love her!

With all my love to you,

Sanae

Thank you for your prayers and continuous support!

We are grateful and invite you to help us at this time by YouCaring Fundraisng to Support Sanae’s Recovery from Cancer or purchasing our books directly from us to cover my medical expenses.

Here are our books:

Love, Sanae

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Love, Eric and Sanae

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Love, Eric Revised

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Healthy Happy Pooch

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My post mailing address for sending your card, gift or check:

2610A 23rd St.

Santa Monica, CA 90405

I will not be able to personally reply to each person, but I promise I will read everyone’s messages, emails, and cards.

Love, Sanae 💖