Knit Hats for Everyone

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It sure has been a gift of nature that brought us here in California a lot of rain.
We imagine that living in Oregon must be like this.

I came up an idea to lift up myself during rainy days to knit hats for all my family.

I enjoy crochet and knit for many years and made many different hats, but never made a hat with earflaps and sweet i-cord on the top.

If you want to make this hat you can purchase this pattern from Spincycle Yarn (not dogs and cats size). They are my favorite beautiful hand spin yarns from Bellingham, Washington.

Here are the photos for you to enjoy!

Hats -Sanae Happy & Lumi 650 Photo: Went to the beach while sun came up

 

Hats -Eric Sanae Happy & Lumi 650

Photo: Tried to get our photo and clouds were coming out…

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Photo: Happy loved the hat!

 

Hat Tin Tin 650 Photo: Tin Tin was good wearing the hat!

 

 

 

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Photo: Mai Mai and Tin Tin felt warm with these hats.

Happy hats making!

Love, Sanae💖

Kula’s 100th-Day Memorial

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In Buddhist tradition, the 100th-day memorial is prominent after the 49th-day memorial. (I wrote about what we did for Kula for 49th-Day Memorial here)

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Kulas Albums with 214 photos in 84 pages.

 

We express our affection and gratitude to Kula—who departed on August 1, 2016—in a natural manifestation of untainted and pure emotion.         This is an occasion for sincere and deep reflection on life and death.

The 100th-day memorial is a time to sort out clothing and other items that belonged to the deceased and share them with others, sending gratitude to family and friends. After 100 days, you are supposed to stop crying.

 

I washed Kula’s collar, towels, and bed and gave them to other dogs.

I decided to send Kula’s 49th-day memorial cards—with my calligraphy and art envelopes—to family and friends who could not come.

That took time, but I completed!

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Sending Kula’s card with my calligraphy and art envelopes.

 

I feel Kula’s existence every day, but I felt it, even more, when I celebrated her 100th-day memorial. I practiced yoga felt Kula that morning so strongly and my tears came down as missing her…

 

We went to the beach restaurant where we used to go with Kula.

It was a warm day, even though it is November, so there was no parking by the beach. I called to Kula and asked her to find parking, and she gave us a perfect parking spot in a second. We knew Kula was an angle, but now she is also a parking angel!

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Eric & Happy at the beach

We decided to take Happy along with us since Happy has received the most influence from Kula since they walked together everyday for a few years; we went to the water after dinner and called to Kula!

Kula loved the beach so much, and we went to the beach with her for many years…we felt that she was there enjoying herself even now.

We thank Kula for her life and memories.

 

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Kula’s favorite plumeria flowers are still blooming this year!

With love and Kula’s favorite plumeria flowers (even November they are still blooming this year),

Sanae💖

Kula, Golden Retriever’s 49th-Day Memorial

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Kula came into my life when I was in my wheelchair in 2003 after I had a near-fatal car crash. Her mother, Kin, was my service dog. After Kin departed, I wished for Kula to be my service dog. She was a very shy and quiet puppy, so even during the two years that we took her to training, I was not sure if she could be a service dog. But she worked to build her confidence and passed the test.

 

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Kula’s 49th-Day Gathering register desk with friends wishes for Kula.

 

Kula was the most gentle, smart and kind dog I’ve ever met. She became not only my service dog—opening the door, picking up things I dropped—but also my beloved dog daughter, who was there for me every day to enjoy her life with us. She loved going to the beach, on mountain hikes, swimming, diving into Manzanita Lake, and enjoying the snow. We had a beautiful life together for 13 years.

I felt much sadness after Kula departed on August 1, 2016.

I wanted to honor her life and process my grief and longing through a memorial gathering with my husband Eric and others who’d loved her all her life.

Kula used to go to senior homes, where she made many people happy, as well as to the Santa Monica Farmers Market, where she’d meet children and let them feed her organic apples.

Please read about her going to senior homes and Santa Monica Farmers Market on my blog.

 

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This is the memorial card I made for the friends/guests with her favorite flowers: plumeria and white hibiscus.

 

 

 

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Here is Kula’s photo album “Kula’s Beautiful Life”, which I made with Eric. It contains 84 pages and 214 photos.

 

We had 26 guests, and we got all kinds of great food (everything was vegan, except one dish). I made Kula’s favorite hijiki dish, and Eric made Kula Cake—vanilla flavor with almond cream.

These below photos were taking by our good friend, Claire Johnson.

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Sanae (me) and Eric with Eric’s Kula Cake and all the potluck food!

 

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Vadaka

 

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Jeff and Phung and their daughter, Quyen and son, Khai with Kula’s sister, Oro, Jessica, Florence and Manuela…

 

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Masano and Rin.

 

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Sanae (me) and Allison with Kula’s nephew, Bubu

 

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Michellee and her mom.

 

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Sanae (me) with Kula’s dog family Health Happy Pooches (let to right Bubu, Happy, Oro, Leo and Lumi).

 

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Sal & Mariko with Kula’s grand niece, Happy.

 

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Stephanie, Sally, and Karin.

 

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John, Carole, Manuela and Jessica…

 

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Eric with powerful vegan ladies: Chef AJ, Armaiti, Shayda and Lisa

 

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Michiyo, Dan, Masako and Yoko singing and dancing

 

 

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Singing Kula’s Pacific Blue

 

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Amanda

 

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Michiyo & Dan

 

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Everyone put incent for Kula.

 

Our friends/guests shared their wishes, thoughts, and love for Kula.

I sang “Kula’s Pacific Blue” (I changed the lyrics) with Eric’s ukulele, accompanied by Dan How, our ukulele teacher.

I was nervous and made mistakes—you can see how I sang—but it was from my heart, and I really want to share it with everyone.The video was posted by Kula and our friend Chef AJ on Facebook.

Claire and I were able to retrieve it and post on Youtube so you can watch it and remember we had a fun and good memorial for Kula.

Kula’s Pacific Blue!

As I said in this video, animals have feelings and emotions, just like humans. Honoring their lives and holding memorial services help us to experience healthy grieving and learn how to be good humans.

 

With gratitude and love of light,

 

Sanae 💖

 

 

Kula, Golden Retriever Life With Her Cancer, Part 5: Keeping Healthy Gums

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After Kula was diagnosed with spleen cancer she was not able to walk so I decided to do all-holistic bodywork to help her walk again.

Morning body routine before morning remedy drink and/or breakfast:
1. Massage her gums
2. Body scrub
3. Shiatsu
4. Do-in exercise

I felt that massaging Kula’s gums were important, since she had abuses on her left-side gums, as you can see in the photo. Her gum area was discharging pus. Holistic veterinarian Dr. Lane showed me how to make a gum rinse formula with green tea and myrrh essential oil (which is very good for gums and can also be used as a mouthwash to help eliminate dental infections) and massaged her gums with loquat tea (made from loquat leaf) and sea salt every day.

Here I am showing photos of Kula’s abscess how it got better.

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Holistic veterinarian Dr. Lane is disinfecting Kula’s abscess on May 27, 2016

 

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Kula’s abscess gum on May 30, 2016

 

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Kula abscess gum on June 3, 2016

 

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Kula’s abscess on July 15, 2016

 

Recipe

For dogs:
1 cup green tea or loquat leaf tea
2 drops myrrh essential oil (if for cats, I just use sea salt, since cats are very sensitive to essential oil)

For people:
1 cup green tea or loquat leaf tea

4–5 drops myrrh essential oil

 

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Loquat leaf and the tea and myrrh essential oil with a soft gum brush

 

Use a very soft, small toothbrush. If you want to, you can use your finger (usually index).

Photo: Toothbrush and loquat leaf

In this video, I am massaging Kula’s gums.

Wishing healthy gums and teeth for your dog and you!
Love, Sanae 💖

Kula, Golden Retriever, Life with Her Cancer Part 4

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Seven days after Kula’s departure.

 

I am not a mindful Buddhist practitioner, but I want to honor my beloved dog daughter, Kula—who departed just seven days ago—with my heart of spirit. I decided to follow some Buddhist traditions for her.

Shonanona is a Buddhist service held on the seventh day after death. This is when the deceased crosses the River Styx (4000km – 2485.485 miles wide)  after she passes 3200km/1988.388mile long steep mountain.  Depending on her behavior during life, the stream of the river will change. So, the deceased’s family gather and honor her, sharing good memories and thoughts so that she will receive a gentle stream.

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Wishing Kula for a smooth journey…

 

Kula was a perfect dog, so I am sure she’ll have no problem passing the steep mountain and receiving a gentle stream, but I wanted to be certain. So, Eric and I went to the beach—Kula’s favorite place. We swam, and I called her name seven times loudly to reach her and send my wish that her journey to heaven is smooth. As I was finishing swimming, my right hand caught some seaweed, and I thought it was Kula saying, “I love you!” She loved seaweed, so I decided to bring it and put it on the altar for her.

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Washed the seaweed to bring home for Kula

 

We have received many emails, comments, and Facebook messages about Kula. Eric and I are deeply touched by everyone’s kind thoughts. Appreciate everyone!

I want to share two quotes from messages we received

  1. From Madir Scalini, Maui, Hawaii

“The reality is that you will grieve forever.

You will not ‘get over’ the loss of loved one; you will learn to live with it.

You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered.

You will be whole again but, you will never be the same.

Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to.”

Elizabeth Kubler-Ross and John Kessler

 

  1. From James Peden, Santa Barbara

Some wise person wrote:

It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them.

And every new dog who comes into my life, gifts me with a piece of their heart.

If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dogs,

and I will become as generous and loving as they are.

 

I love both of them so much. The one from Madir is so true and made me feel grounded to move forward.                       The one from James made me smile. Eric said “Sanae, components of your heart are already 85% dog!” hahaha

 

On September 18, I plan to hold a shijūkunichi—an important Buddhist memorial service for the 49th day—for Kula. I will let everyone know more details, and I hope you can join here with us wherever you are.

 

Oro (Kula’s a half sister) who is grieving and missing so much Kula with us. We took her also to the beach and she met new friends – Noman with Josie and Susan with Morgan.They helped Oro feel so much better.

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When I took a photo of Oro with women (her name was Anna), Oro showed me Kula smile and surprise us.

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Oro (with Kula’s smile) and Anna

We also found out that Kula’s nephew, Luka was also swimming in the face of Percé Rock, Percé, QC, Canada.

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Kula’s spirit is continuing with Oro and us everywhere and everyone.

Bravo Kula!!!

Thank Kula with all my heart!

 

I shall continue writing about Kula and her family to spread their healing spirits.

 

Love, Sanae💖

 

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Kula, Golden Retriever, Life with Her Cancer Part 3

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Life is so precious.

My dog daughter Kula’s life has been very simple, but she enjoyed every day to the fullest even after her spleen cancer spread to lungs.

I asked her recently why she can be so patient and kind to everyone even after getting cancer…she said without any hesitation,

“Why? Because life is so precious, don’t you know mommy? Every day is never exactly the same. I love each day that the sun comes up in the morning, no matter what. Sometimes the sun is not showing the face, but I feel the existence of the sun every day, and the sunlight makes me feel so good. That’s why I really enjoyed you and papa Eric taking me to see the New Year sunrise in the mountains every year.

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Kula enjoys New Year sunrise so much every year!

 

“I also love feeling the breeze coming into the room when you open the window first thing in the morning. I love fresh air so much. That’s why I love going to the beach whenever you were able to take me. After I stretch you take me out to the yard, and each time it smells different, believe it or not. I enjoy relaxing while you make breakfast with the music you play from your iTunes, YouTube or Spotify. I love your choice of music most of the time, but I love your singing even more and your dancing. My food is always freshly made and organic, and it smells so delicious and tastes super yummy. Since I got cancer you not just prepared a healing delicious food, but started to give me a body scrub and shiatsu massage which felt so good, then finishing up with Do-in excise which was fun and stimulating. You are the best caretaker, but you are of course my mommy! Also, please let papa Eric know that he was the best papa and his ukulele music heals my soul every time he played and I love him with all my heart and more than going to beach!”

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Eric plays ukulele for us!

 

“I love watching doves and hummingbirds in the yard after breakfast and taking naps whenever I want. I love you and papa Eric for taking care of me like I am the most precious dog in the world. Papa Eric carried me when I was not able to walk and cuddled with me when I was having a fever.”

“I love my animal family – My half sister Oro respects me so much as her big sister, so we never had an augment, and I will miss her a lot. Leo cares and worries with his eyes about me as Oro’s partner. Bubu is a great nephew who never bothered me and gave me space, but he was there for me always. Lumi, my niece and also my sister Dore in her previous her life, tries to play with me everyday and it’s fun playing with her, even though sometimes she is too frisky for my age. My great niece Happy who is so cute and beautiful, but she does not know how beautiful she is so she is insecure like I used to be. I appreciate TinTin the boy cat who comes to check on me and talks so much to me since I am a pretty quiet dog and therefore a good listener, and MaiMai the girl kitty sleeps in the same room every night when I have a fever and have to sleep in the back room with mommy. I never thought that I can be the leader of a family of eight, but after my big sister Dore was killed in a hit-and-run car accident, and my Kin mama was so sad that she left us 10 days after Dore, I had to learn to accept the role of leader of our pack quickly. It was not easy and I may not be a good leader like Kin mama, being around so many dog-and-cat-facilities. Thanks to mommy for taking animal communication classes so we were able to communicate better and papa Eric for taking his time to slow down and understand his animal family.”

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Kula in the front middle with her dog family

 

“I also need to let you know how much I love road trips since you and papa Eric took me to Quebec and Nova Scotia when I was 8 weeks old. I remember my first and last experience chasing roosters in Eric papa’s uncle’s yard. It was so much fun! Since that trip, the car became my second home.”

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Kula with her sister, Dore & mama Kin and Me in St. Luce, Quebec 2003

 

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Kula on her favorite diving rock at Manzanita Lake in North Fork

 

Watch Kula’s amazing diving at Manzanita Lake on Youtube.

“Going to North Fork and swimming and diving at Manzanita lake was one of my most favorite things, as was going to Farmers Market and seeing all the children and adults who pet me; visiting Leyla the apple vendor, who always gave me my favorite Fuji apple; meeting people at Seed Kitchen; talking to people at the bookstore; going to the senior home to put a smile on the residents’ faces; hiking with mommy who was able to walk farther every time we went. On the last hike in March, she hiked faster than me – I thought I was getting too old, but I think I was getting sick already.”

 

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At Santa Monica Farmers market with Leyla and kids who love Kula so much

 

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Kula at senior home as a therapy dog

 

“I can tell you more and more, but you kind of get the idea why I love my life so much and have no reason to complain.”

“Life is so precious, and true happiness is not about how much money you make or how famous or how popular you become, or how big a house your live in, or how many amazing places you travel to. I have a great family and loving home and just enjoy whatever comes because everything changes. I have learned it from you, mommy because you have limited mobility from the leg injury from the car crash, but you always find something in life to enjoy, and you taught me each day how precious life is.”

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Dore(left – Kula’s sister), Kula and thrie mama Kin with me in my wheelchair

 

”I thank you and papa Eric so much for giving me such a wonderful life. I was born in this house in Santa Monica, and I know that I will depart from this house to go to heaven. Mommy, you helped me to arrive in this life and I know you are going to help me to depart also. I trust you, and I know you trust me so when the time is right I will be departing soon.”

“I will miss your hugs, kisses, and our conversations, but I will be always with you no matter what. I trust that we will see each other again.”

 

Kula was a big sweetheart, and she has been truly our angel. I thank her everyday for her life of 13 years. She always put her paws to my face or arm to be connected, and I showered her with kisses and hugs whenever she needed to sleep with me when she was lonely and tired.

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Kula with her favorite Hawaiian flower, plumeria (Kula’s name is Hawaiian – meaning “gold”) This is the last photo I took of her as my model. She was already subdued so she told me that she could not smile for the photo, but asked me to take as a Hawaiian girl.

 

This conversation with her made me cry. I thanked her again and told her to promise that when she wants to depart I will be there with her, as I always will be in her heart.

She got my message and she departed the next day, on Aug. 1, 2016, at 5:45pm in my arms, on her own will. After her departure, her face looked very peaceful, as though she was smiling. when I put her on her bed she looked like she was just sleeping. I put plumeria flowers next to her. Kula’s holistic vet. Dr. Lane and her husband Patric came to pick her up and she was cremated with her plumeria flowers at Los Angels Pet Memorial Park, SOHIE Kula was cremated on Aug. 3, 2016 at 9am.

Eric and I have been crying and missing her so much, but we are so grateful to have been her human parents and proud of everything she did and who she was for us and others.

I created a temporary altar to place her ashes when she comes home.

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Kula’s altar waiting for her ashes to come back home

 

While  I was creating the altar, Lumi, who played with Kula everyday, just came and lay there like she knew that Kula’s spirit was there.

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Lumi lays by the Kula’s altar

 

Then all the rest of Kula’s dog family came and sat there. They are so sad and missing Kula so much!

 

 

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Kula’s dog family all came to Kula’s altar

 

They miss Kula so much, but the same time feel her spirit! Now they are teaching me that Life is so precious!

 

Thank you for reading this blog, and please share it because life is so precious.

 

Love, Sanae 💖